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Apparently all I have to talk about is pregnancy.


I kinda wish there was something else, but this is taking over my life. I’m so sick that I can’t stand myself, and I’m incredibly thankful to feel this way at the same time. I’m not productive, unhelpful at home and probably less fun in general, but hey – producing a human is hard work. I’m doing my best, just not functioning as well as I’d like.

I took Ian to the dentist all by myself this morning, his first real appointment. He did so well, I was one proud Momma for sure. Every time he saw the dentist or the hygienist he opened wide so they could see his teeth, and if they missed it he interjected conversation with statements like “Ian has great teeth” or “Ian has lots of nice teeth”. Awesome. He was super patient today, quiet, listened and responded to every request, just good in general. This gives me hope and makes me so proud to be his Momma.

Oh look, we just talked about something other than pregnancy! My kid, but hey, it’s a start.

For anyone who cares to know, we had our first real ultrasound yesterday. It was great. We got to see our little peanut, see AND HEAR the heartbeat! Crazy right? Yesterday I was 7 weeks 5 days (or 3 days, depending on which measurement…I’m going with 5) and we could hear a heartbeat. That is amazing people. I’m in awe. I had a rough weekend and with my history the nurses and my Dr said we needed the big-time ultrasound. Who am I to argue? I just need a healthy baby, and if this makes me feel better then I’m all for it. It did make me feel better for the record.

So now I’m back to being grateful for feeling awful.

Oh, also week 1 of grad school is officially complete. Just 19 months three weeks to go. Ha! This class is pretty easy, I’m not sure what will happen when I get past it but I’m thankful to have an easy class while I feel terrible. That’s a blessing on it’s own!

I think good things are finally happening. Crossing my fingers that’s true.


Thankful to be sick.


Remember when I said I wish I felt worse? Well, here we are.

This has been an up and down week. My first ultrasound was scheduled for Tuesday at 4:20. I got a call in the morning from the office manager Sandy, telling me my Dr. was stuck in Chicago and wouldn’t be back in time for my appointment. Sandy was asked to reschedule her day, but to call me directly herself so I wouldn’t have a meltdown. Does Dr. K know me or what?

Sandy called. I promptly had a meltdown.

Really, I understand and I can wait, but I am taking it as a good sign that I was so emotional about it. She rescheduled me for Friday (the earliest opportunity). I am so nervous about this pregnancy that I just need to know as much as possible all the way through.

Then suddenly, change of plans! My Dr got back info town, called me at 4:02 and STILL fit me in! Have I mentioned how much I love her? She is absolutely wonderful.

Ultimately I had no time to panic or stress, and we learned that there is one little someone in there! I’m 6 weeks today. Dr. K is having me come back in Friday and next week so we can monitor and check for a heartbeat. I’m so grateful that she saw me and that things are moving along. I’m also so grateful that she recognizes my type A action and is helping me through all this. Sigh of relief, at least for today!!!

So, in the end I’m so glad to feel worse. It’s just what I need to make a healthy baby a reality. And maybe we’ll have an awesome update tomorrow.